If you look up Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware definitions for the English word 'self', what you will find are various descriptions of the psycho-emotional Survival Strategy that most people are identified with, their 'ego'. Modern culture teaches that who you are is your 'Box', a conglomeration of rules, assumptions, expectations, conclusions, memories, beliefs, prejudices, habits, preferences, opinions, what you know, etc.

'Self' is commonly defined as:

• 'The set of someone's characteristics, such as personality and ability, that are not physical and make that person different from other people.'
• 'Your self is your sense of who you are, deep down — your identity. "When you let someone else know you well, you reveal your 'true' self to them."
• 'Your sense of self refers to your perception of the collection of characteristics that define you.'
• 'Your beliefs about yourself, including your belief about your attributes and who and what the self is.'
• 'Your personality, character, temperament, identity, temper, disposition, individuality.' "She was back to her old self again."

This concept of 'self' only come into popular use during the past hundred years or so. In the 1100s 'self' meant: 'the person or thing previously specified'. In the early 1300's it meant 'a person in relation to that same person'. In 1880 G.M. Hopkins used 'selve' as a verb, meaning, 'to become or cause to become a unique self', but its use seems to have been restricted to poets.

Relating with your 'self' as your Box, and relating with other people's 'selves' as their Box, explains a lot about the shallowness and existential dilemmas facing western civilization in the early 21st Century.

The 'Box' is your protection, your Survival Strategy. If your Box can protect itself and be 'right' then its survival tactics will continue working. This is why your Box will protect itself first, before it protects you. This is why a threat to your 'lifestyle' or an insult to your 'personality' feels so dangerous and triggers so much gut-level fear, offense, and reactivity.

You have been trained to identify with being your Box, and to make sure that, above all else, your Box is 'right' (even if your Box is right that you are wrong, or bad, or stupid, or do not fit in, etc.)

Everyone else around you is trained the same way. This is why being identified seems normal.

In fact, if you meet someone who is 'disidentified', who is more unhookable than you are, they may seem to be 'cold', 'untouchable', or frighteningly 'not human'. You will not be able to control them or manipulate them using your Box's automatic reactions:

• Channel 1 (fight, or explode) get rid of them
• Channel 2 (flight) get rid of yourself
• Channel 3 (freeze, or implode) go invisible

Something completely different from this kind of living and relating is possible right now.

• Being Confused due to thinking that opinions, judgements, prejudices, assumptions, expectations, conclusions, projections, stories, etc., yours, other peoples', or institutions', are 'true' and 'real'.
• It limits what is Possible for you, for others, in your relating, in your Teams, in your Creating, etc. to the confines of your psycho-emotional world.
• Since the Box is a set of dead, mechanical reactions, you regard yourself as a set of dead mechanical reactions.
• You submit yourself to being treated as a dead mechanical object which can be bought or sold, told what to do, and be paid a certain amount per hour for doing what someone higher than you in the hierarchy tells you to do, even if it is beneath your dignity to do so.
• You also view others as dead, mechanical objects which you can then abuse, disregard, disrespect, make assumptions about, make judgements about, enslave, feel superior / inferior to, dispose of, ignore, kill, abandon - whatever fits into your childhood Survival Strategy.
• Your absent-minded conclusions about humans being dead mechanical objects block huge quantities of Potential, and diverse qualities of Nonlinear and Unreasonable options, from becoming available to you.

Your Being is trapped inside of your childhood psycho-emotional defense strategy - your Box - and will remain so until you encounter the beginning of your Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes around your eighteenth birthday.

The problem being, of course, that modern culture systemmatically eliminated and banished Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes some 6000 years ago, at the beginnings of Patriarchy.

Adulthood Initiatory processes are not available in modern culture. To find them, you would need to journey to the edges of modern culture and develop a clear and not-naive sense of what is authentically useful for shifting out of adolescence into adulthood, in reality, and what is merely joining the fan club of a Handsome Holy Tribal Man.

Modern culture can only offer you hierarchical structures - in religion, government, education, military, business. A hierarchy requires many slave-Zombie-workers-consumers at the bottom, and naturally selects for a few psychopaths to reach the top.

Those who are best at doing 'whatever it takes' to grab a position of power will move higher up the hierarchy. The most ruthless climbers are the psychopaths. Now you understand why modern culture is exterminating life on Earth at the fastest possible rate. With naive faith we 'good citizens' submit ourselves to hierchical power structures that serve a psychopathic agenda and have no intention at all of creating a bright future for life on Earth.

Without authentic adulthood initiations, your Being remains powerless and trapped inside of your Box, exactly like a fully developed butterfly trapped inside her chrysalis, or a baby rooster trapped inside his eggshell. No wonder there is Attention Defecit Dissorder and mass shootings at schools, drugs, alcohol, marijuana, depression, suicide... What else should you do with your rage?

But modern culture has edges. Whole new domains exist beyond the thoughtware limits of modern culture.

People who discover the edges of modern culture (and also indigenous culture...) and establish their transformational bridge-building services at those edges, are called 'Edgeworkers'. Perhaps you are already an Edgeworker.

The purpose of investigating Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes is that unless you engage initiations whole-heartedly, your Being remains trapped inside of your Survival Strategy, possibly for the rest of your life. Then you almost never get to be yourself. All you get to be is a fearful naive Being pretending to 'be okay' inside of a phony persona designed to please other people, offend other people, dominate and control other people, or be invisible to other people. But where are located you in your own life? You are not there. So how can someone else be with you? How can you connect? How can you be intimate? The short answer is: you cannot.

An 'Archiarchal Initiation' is 'any process after which you are capable of taking more responsibility'.

Initiations build Matrix in your Being which can hold more Consciousness.

Responsibility is Consciousness in action.

In other words, Responsibility is applied Consciousness.

Consciousness is captured by the network of interwoven, or integrated, Distinctions that have already 'landed' in your Being (not in your mind).

Consciousness is everywhere, like light is everywhere during the daytime, or light is everywhere in an illuminated room. But you can only perceive the light in a physical Space when it strikes a physical object. The quality of the light you perceive is determined by the qualities of the physical object the light strikes: which colors are reflected, which colors are absorbed, the brightness, shinyness, texture, patterns, etc.

The same is true of Consciousness.

Consciousness is everywhere, but you can only perceive the consciousness in an energetic Space when it strikes a physical or energetic object. The quality of the consciousness that appears is determined by the qualities of the Matrix of Distinctions woven into the Being of the object. Rocks reflect rock consciousness. Trees reflect tree consciousness. Snails reflect snail consciousness. Cockroaches reflect cockroach consciousness. Cats reflect cat consciousness. Humans reflect human consciousness.

The difference between human consciousness and any other kind of consciousness, is that Gaia produced organic structures called 'Homo sapien sapien' which are sophisticated and complex enough that our awareness of our awareness and potentials can evolve.

Human beings' Beings can evolve to hold and make use of more and more consciousness.

The more Distinctions integrated into your Being, the more Consciousness you can catch and use. In this Evolution of Consciousness, there is no top end.

Yes, there is a beginning to the Evolutionary Path of becoming aware of yourself. The beginning is when you become aware that you are aware of awareness, aware of your potential, to some degree skillful in Causing Healing and Transformation, and so on. There is a beginning to the Path, but there is no end. This is because, although there are many Paths up the Mountain... there is no Mountain.

Your Evolutionary Path starts with your first Initiatory Process into Authentic Adulthood, 'Step 0', usually discovered by 'accident' or 'coincidence', and usually delivered to you by someone else. Step 0 usually involves shattering a worldview, or subverting part of your Box.

This shocking, painful, enlightening, scary experience is a one-way road. Once 'Humpty Dumpty' falls off the wall and shatters, he can never be put back together again, even by 'all the King's horses and all the King's men'.

You might hate that other person for their part in delivering Step 0. You might, after a while, love them for it. One day you might be called upon to provide Step 0 at exactly the perfect inopportune moment for someone else. If so, please execute it as elegantly and with as much Integrity as you can. It is possible to cause transformation without causing scars.

Unless you are internally reordered during step-by-step Initiatory Processes, unless you learn to 'navigate the transformational Liquid States', you will be left behind in the 'straightjacket' of your psycho-emotional Box, left behind playing your role as a consumable pawn or 'cannon fodder' in already obsolete gameworlds.

Something completely different from this is possible right now. (Yes, we said this already. It is still true.) The 'bad news' is that entering the new possibility can be completely blocked or sabotaged by your unconscious, uninitiated Gremlin.

The active part of your Box... the Part taking actions and inactions that protect your Box's Survival Strategy, is called your 'Gremlin'.

Your Gremlin is not outside of you, and it does not come from somewhere else.

Your Gremlin (he or she) is as close to you as being offended, feeling jealous, or plotting Revenge.

Your Gremlin mechanically makes efforts for you to Survive until you go through Gremlin Transformation during which time Gremlin's Nonlinear and Unreasonable resources are unleashed and you learn to use them for Living Full Out as a Free and Natural Adult.

We have discovered the long, hard, slow, and painful way during the last thirty years (since 1991) that, no matter how deep and thorough your Emotional Healing Processes (EHP) may be, and no matter how powerful and clear your Authentic Adulthood Initiatory Processes may be, you will neither Heal nor be Initiated further into Adulthood if your Gremlin is not transformed. Period.

As natural as a rat eating cheese, your Gremlin will ravenously eat your Healing and your Initiation processes as if he or she is doing you a the biggest favor in the world, as if he or she is 'saving your life', when in fact he or she is only assuring your mummification.

Your Gremlin is utterly clever about blocking any kind of change because your Box is only designed to allow you to Survive within specific internal and external circumstances. Any changes to these circumstances threatens your Box's ability to deliver on its promise to keep you in Survival.

Your Gremlin ruthlessly commits to your Box's need to keep everything the same in your life: your capacity to love and be intimate, your ability to create, your vulnerability for intimacy... Nothing can be allowed to change for fear that your Box might fail to defend you.

Gremlin so effectively undermines any of your attempts to Heal, or Evolve, or Love, that you are wasting time, intention, energy, and money trying to heal or grow-up if you do not first change your Gremlin' mission.

Gremlin Transformation is a deep and thorough one- or two-year professionally guided process.

Please hear our discovery earnestly. It is painful to say this. We wish we knew about this thirty years ago. But we did not. And now we do.

If you have any interest in continuing with Expand The Box training and Possibility Labs, if your destiny calls you to participate in Possibilitator Training, if you actually want to get on with your life and collaborate with Gaia to create what you came here to create, please simply go to the Gremlin Transformation website (https://gremlintransformation.mystrikingly.com), read the details, and get yourself into the next available Gremlin Transformation Team. It does not cost much money or take much time, yet it will change your life and improve what you can offer to other people.

AFTER you succeed in transforming your own Gremlin, your Possibilitator Specialty may even include delivering Gremlin Transformation for others.

One reason Gremlin Transformation is so important on the evolutionary and initiatory Path is that Gremlin Transformation is the prerequisite for Decontaminating your Child Egostate, your Parent Egostate, your Gremlin Egostate, and your Demon Egostate out of your Adult Egostate:

After successfully accomplishing Gremlin Transformation, you are prepared with your Gremlin at your side as an ally, with new Matrix built from experiential distinctions, with EHPs that release your Gremlin from being an agent of terror and suppression to being an agent of creation and transformation.

You now carry a specially sharpened Sword Of Clarity with powerful Distinctions for facing the really big thing that is fucking up your life.

I recognize that these are harsh words. I (Clinton Callahan) feel angry, and sad, and scared that Possibility Trainers were not clear before now about what I am about to tell you. But we were not. And not only that, no Context or Transformational Gameworld that we have so far encountered is clear about this either.

Never before have human beings had the chances that we have now to enter Free And Natural Adulthood. The Mayans did not have this clarity. The Australian aborigines did not have this possibility. The philosphers of China or Greece did not map out this proposal. The Egyptians, Sumerians, Babylonians, Assyrians, Persians, and Phoenicians did not have these processes. The Khmer of Funan did not have these thoughtmaps. The Upanishads and Vedas do not give us these distinctions. Here is a chance to StartOver that is nearly beyond comprehension.

It is a common but powerful Survival Strategy to contaminate your Adult Egostate with your Child Egostate, Parent Egostate, Gremlin Egostate, or Demon Egostate.

This technique of contaminating your Adult Ego State is powerful because anyone expecting you to take Adult Level Responsibility, cannot manipulate or control you by forcing you to strive for 'fairness', because neither the Child, Parent, Gremlin, nor Demon Egostates have any respect for 'fairness'. In the end, your Box wins, and they lose. 'You' Survive. They can go fuck themselves. This is an excellent gameplan... until you become older than eighteen years old.

Then suddenly the thing that protected you through childhood and adolescence has now become your prison.

Contaminating your Adult Ego State blocks any chances you have of accessing the Archetypal Domains.

It is mechanically required that you occupy your simple Decontaminated Adult Egostate before you can gain access to the Archetypal Domains which are your human birthright. Human beings are designed to directly interact with the Archetypal nature of the Universe, but the gateway to the Archetypal Domains is the Decontaminated Adult Egostate.

You have contaminated your Adult Egostate on purpose, even if that purpose is no longer a valid gameplan.

Decontaminating your Adult Egostate is a focused year or two of Work, with a paid coach at your side, and a Team at your back. Gremlin Transformation is a prerequisite to the Adult Egostate Decontaminations. There is no way around this for Being Yourself.

Even after earning a Master's or Doctoral Degree at a modern culture University, you will most probably still be locked deep within a nested series of 8 Prisons.

We offer you thousands of pages of text in books (Conscious Feelings, Building Love Than Lasts, No Reason), articles (see articles at Jewels Of Possibility), and websites (see Spaceport) to substantiate the claim made in the above sentence.

Still, nothing is more impressive than:

• Trying Radical Relating and not being able to sustain it for more than a few minutes
• Trying to Cavitate and Navigate a Circular Meeting contexted in Radical Responsibility and getting Hooked into Low Drama and Reactivity in a matter of a few seconds
• Trying to deliver the services of your Archetypal Lineage and being too petrified with Unconscious Fear to even make a close-up photo of your face, or build your website, or give a public talk.

And that is exactly where you are: stuck solidly away in one or more of the 8 Prisons which is holding you back from being able to set even one foot solidly into Adulthood.

1. Mother's Belly
2. Father's Control
3. Parents' Household
4. School System
5. Birth Country Beliefs
6. Birth Religion Beliefs
7. Patriarchy
8. Linear Life Plan

Modern culture forces you to submit your sovereignty even before you are born. You do not have to give it away, but the vast majority of us do. The 'doctors' probably had your mother on some kind of a 'modern' prenatal care program: analyzing the baby's growth and development, checking their personal health progress, giving them lifestyle tips and regular 'testing opportunities' (all of which make money for the doctor's lifestyle opportunities...)

Probably you were scanned and probed while still in your mother's womb. Probably your birth was forced according to the doctor's golf schedule. You may even have been cut out of your mother's womb with a completely unnecessary Cesarean operation. (In Brazil, 80 to 90 percent of women in private hospitals deliver by Cesarean surgery because it 'allows mothers and doctors to better organize their time'... even though results show that Cesarean birth can adversely effect a child's sensory perception, sensory integration ability, neuropsychiatric development, and the infant-mother relationship...).

In an Archiarchal tribe, a child chooses her or his own parental caretakers as soon as she or he can crawl. They go live in whichever household they prefer because they are a child of the village, not the child of an isolated nuclear family, or the child of a single mom desperately trying to survive in the city.

A modern child gets shipped off to 'day care' or 'kindergarten' at two, three, or four years old, sliding into the Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware program of public school for the next fourteen years of their life.

What would have happened to you if you disagreed trying to force yourself to be adaptive? What would they have done to you? What would the consequences have been if you did not fit into the program?

Right... the consequences would have been so significant in terms of your own actual survival that you hardly even thought about it. Your highest mastery of social skills is in Being Adaptive.

What does 'Being Adaptive' mean? It mean perceiving, thinking, behaving according to the imperatives given by the surrounding gameworld, culture, family traditions.

Being Adaptive means giving your Center, Authority, and Sovereignty away to the current local 'authority figure', letting your mechanical Survival Strategy prirorities take over and decide for you, instead of you Being Yourself and letting your Infinite Resources create through you what is truly wanted and needed in the Present Space.

Being Adaptive means encouraging your Gremlin to play out its unconscious behaviors at the cost of Intimacy, Vulnerability, Presence, Connection, Possibility, and Love.

Choosing to be Adaptive means that you value your past Baggage more than you value your present Creation.

The central consideration being: Can you Be Yourself if you are Being Adaptive?

The central answer is: Probably not.

If who you are at your core is 'adaptive', then your Survival Strategy is to not be there, e.g. take no Stand, make no Boundary, make no Decision, refuse to Say What You Want, create no Clarity, remain Confused, make no Commitment.

If you are not there, how can anyone be there with you?

There are two answers to this question:

1. They cannot be with you.
2. They can be Adaptive with you.

Most often how #2 shows up is in bands of roving adolescents carrying beer, smokables, and skateboards, no one leading, no one following, some kind of 'lowest-common-denominator' 'group mind' aimlessly moving the cloudy mob around consuming whatever is needed to maintain the lack of focus or care until external circumstances (police, parents, school authorities, rain, cold, hunger, or dark...) force the mob to break up and go somewhere else.

The Gremlin payoff for 'not being there' and forcing others to then not be able to be with you, is to claim to be 'rejected', that they have 'excluded you', that you are 'discriminated against', that you are being 'victimized'... and then, yes now! You can go full out and take Revenge.

A common kind of Revenge to take is to be visibly unhappy, visibly unsuccessful, to be 'a failure'. Then everyone can see that you had 'bad parents'.

But possibly the greatest Revenge your Gremlin can take on everyone all at once is to commit suicide.

Yes, that will show them!

How can you exit the Survival Strategy of Being Adaptive?

First, are you sure you want to?

It is simple to stop being Adaptive.

You do it the same way you started Being Adaptive.

You started it. You can stop it.

That will be your map for stopping Being Adaptive: find in excruciatingly painful detail exactly when, how, and why you started being Adaptive in every single example during your day and night, and do something different from that.

This is not about 'positive thinking'. No 'aphorisms'... no 'advice from the Dalai Lama' will do it.

You are are the one doing it. You are the one who can stop doing it.

The strongest practice we can recommend, AND WE HOPE YOU TRULY AND IMMEDIATELY START DOING THIS, is to fiercely commit to participating in a full year of weekly attendance at Violence Anonymous Meetings. In person or online.

Why Violence Anonymous? Because by being Adaptive you are being violent with yourself. You are doing Gremlin Self Cannibalism.

Be fully attentive and fully participative in formal Violence Anonymous meetings AT LEAST TWICE, BETTER THREE MEETINGS EACH WEEK FOR ONE WHOLE YEAR MINIMUM.

This can save your life. This is what can confront your Gremlin's Self-Violating Survival Strategy at its core, at its roots. This is what can give you the possibility of coming back to life.

At Violence Anonymous you will be forced to painfully acknowledge how dedicated you are to being addicted to blaming, complaining, giving excuses, lying, deceiving others, deceiving yourself, and being adaptive rather than living.

Thank god! Finally! The shit hits the fan!

It is not a pretty sight, except when the sun rises on your new future. Then you can stick around in Violence Anonymous Teams and help others come back to life also!

You may be comfortable following the familiar thoughtware in your brain, the habit patterns of your Box. Sure, your Box has allowed you to survive.

This is all your Box can give you: Survival.

But you... you are designed to hatch out of your Box and to enter the Evolutionary Path of ongoing Authentic Adulthood Initiations.

You are designed to be Centered, Grounded, Bubbled, to be Present in 5 Bodies, and to profitably navigate your Feelings and Emotions.

You are capable of Stellating your Feelings Archetypes.

You are intended to open the archetypal Pearl at the center of your Being.

You have the power to Transform your Gremlin and Decontaminate your Adult Egostate.

You are designed to distill your Bright Principles.

You are capable of Building enough Matrix to formally jack-in to your Archetypal Lineage.

You have the Inner Navigation sensitivity to do Emotional Healing Processes (EHP) and complete Incomplete Emotions.

You are designed to serve E.C.C.O. on Earth.

You have the capacity to Cavitate, Occupy, and Navigate Spaces in extraordinary Contexts that never existed on Earth before.

You have been given Nothingness and the Unknown as Infinite Resources for building out new Archiarchal Gamespace.

Sure... you can continue surviving inside of your Box of habits, rules, beliefs, assumptions, projections, conclusions...

Your Box can survive.

But your Being wants to live.

What is that?

Your Being is wearing your 5 Bodies like a bodyglove. You have been caring for the feeding of your Heart and the feeding your Being.

Who has been doing the caring?

If you are the one doing Experiments with your Being, being Present, being With, Building Matrix in your Being, serving your Bright Principles, being the Space through which your Archetypal Lineage can do its work in the world... then who is the one Experimenting, Building, Serving, or being?

What are you really?

What if you are not your Being?

What if the entire concept of 'being a Being', being a 'self', having a 'self', loving or not loving your 'self', judging whether your 'self' is 'okay' or 'not okay'... what if the whole understanding of 'self'... is a superstitution?

What if the concept of 'self' is a piece of Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware that has been handed down from generation to generation without actually inspecting whether the thoughtware is true or not?

What if 'self' is an illusion?

What if 'self' is 'self' deception?

What if the concept of an individuated, unique, separate 'self' is a childish error of perception?

What if your physical form is a 'consciousness antenna', where the General Field of Consciousness is everywhere around your body, and due to your 5 Bodies' subtle and particular distortions of shape, the antenna picks up certain frequencies or qualities, certain aspects of the General Field of Consciousness, but this same exact General Field of Consciousness is informing everyone?

Then there can be no enemy. There can be no 'other'.

What if we are all sacrifices to the Evolution of Gaia becoming more able to manifest Consciousness.

There are Phases in Adulthood.

For example, a new Phase in Adulthood starts after experientially distinguishing between Numbness and the radical-neutrality that comes from no longer feeding your Gremlin the intensity of Low Drama.

By relocating your Point Of Origin to the Context emerging from this Distinction, you are no longer Numb, but at the same time you are no longer in Low Drama with anyone or any thing. You shift from being a Victim in Scarcity to being a Possibilitator in ecstatic Creation.

Then it becomes clear: The opposite of Scarcity is not Abundance. The opposite of Scarcity is Creation. A new depth and quality of Experiments unfolds as Phase 5 of you exploratory steps into Adulthood.

Along your way, new Phases keep unfolding:

• After escaping the 8 Prisons.
• After completing your incomplete Emotions.
• After healing your Emotional Reactivity.
• After Transforming Your Gremlin.
• After Decontaminating Your Adult Egostate.
• After Stellating your Feelings Archetypes.
• After getting your Real Voice.
• After taking back your Authority and your Sovereignty.
• After your parents have become your ancestors.
• After Distilling your Bright Principles.
• After jacking-in to your Archetypal Lineage.
• After finding your Possibilitator Specialty.
• After walking the 4 Steps across the Bridge.
• After Cavitating, Inhabiting, Navigating building out new Gamespace in Archiarchy.
• After Contexting and inhabiting the nanonation gameworld you would love to live in...

...and so on, in an order that is personal and unique for each person on or off the Earth.

In each Phase of Adulthood, something completely different becomes possible in terms of Being Yourself which was not possible before.

• After you 'judo' your way past the distractions of 'success' as marketed by modern culture.
• After being Initiated into Free And Natural Adulthood.
• After you extract yourself from the temptation of being a Handsome Holy Tribal Man.
• After you drop enough Baggage to slide through the Eye Of The Needle into your own future...

What lies before you is... Nothing.

All this time and effort , all this Work to grow up and Be Yourself...

Isn't it all about 'being somebody'?

And here we are talking about 'being nobody', being a Space? What?

That the idea of 'self' is actually a superstition. What?

That life happens best when 'you' are not there... What?

Being the Space through which your Bright Principles and Archetypal Lineage can do their Work in the world. What?

Becoming a Trainer in Flying School. Playing Full Out. Inventing High Level Fun moment-to-moment...

Any Questions?

What?

The interesting answers are experiential. The only way to find them is to go there yourself, taking full risk for the outcome, possibly never being able to change your mind and unlearn what you discover. Evolution is a one-way road...

Can you sing about the song you are singing at the same time you are singing it?

Can you pat the back of your hand with that same hand?

Can you lift yourself into the air by pulling up on your own bootstraps?

Can you look at what you are looking with?

There is a valuable difference to discern between 'thinking about these proposals' and actually trying them out earnestly.

The difference is that in each case, there is a way to do it that works, even if 'who you are now' cannot think of that way in this moment.

Particularly with looking at what you are looking with.

The secret there is to become outrageously skilled with Splitting Your Attention.

Put one part of your Attention on experientially Noticing what you are looking at without making up a Story about what you Notice about what you are looking at.

And while continuing to do that, put another part of your Attention on experientially Noticing what you are looking with, also without making up a Sory about what you Notice.

If you Split Your Attention to look at something while simultaneously looking at what you are looking with, an entirely new experiential Space can open up for you called: the 'Waking State'.

In the experiential Space of the Waking State you might find yourself ongoingly doing Conscious Theater, what one could call Possibility Acting, as a service to your Village, and as an aid to delivering your Archetypal Lineage.

If you are not ongoingly Splitting Your Attention and looking at what you are looking at, plus also at the same time and with the same fierceness of Attention looking at what you are looking with, the result will be that you are Identified with 'what you are looking with's' ordinary unconscious Reactivity to what you are looking at.

There will be no Gap between what you look with and what you look at. Out of your awareness you will then be serving unconscious Purposes for looking at that thing. This makes you a kind of robot, a 'reaction-machine', and if you do it long enough, a Zombie.

When you Practice and gain enough Skill with Splitting Your Attention, and if you have Built enough Matrix to remain in a Waking State Space for a longer time, even when it gets intense - which intensity can begin almost instantly - then a Gap forms between what you look at and what you look with.

The Gap makes it possible for you to no longer be Identified. In fact, you may find yourself falling into that Gap. This can be unimaginably startling. It can seem like you are one of the 3 Men Falling Into A Bottomless Pit, six months later...

But what you are looking with, when you look at a thing whatever it is without any Story attached, includes a myriad of possibilities, none of which come from your unconscious Gremlin habits, or from the unconscious psycho-emotional needs of your Box. Instead you look with:

• The actual Necessity currently viable in the Space.
• Your Gameplan.
• Your Pearl.
• Your Stand.
• Your Commitment to create Clarity.
• Your Commitment to create Possibility.
• Your Commitment to create Archetypal Love.
• Your Commitment to create an appropriate Healing or Process or offer a valuable Quest-ion.
• Your Commitment to create Transformation.
• Your Commitment to create Adventure.
• Your Commitment to serve the Earth Coincidence Control Office (E.C.C.O.)
• Your Commitment to serve your Bright Principles.
• Your Commitment to serve your Archetypal Lineage.
• Etc.

Your experiences in the Gap can easily become radically neutral. That is, you could have direct 5 Body experiences with no Stories attached.

Zero Stories.

This is the Space required for a Mage to do her work.

At first this may feel very weird. It can feel so weird that you get an inexplicable headache. One Possibilitator entered this experience of Radical Neutrality and had such an inexplicable headache that he checked himself into the city hospital and demanded to be given a brain scan. Of course they found nothing and the headache went away, but the gentleman involved decided to go back and finish out his career as an insurance salesman.

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